| Stinky Pinky: Or how to become a lesbian in 34 years | |||
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Saturday, April 26, 2003 ( 6:23 PM ) Fat Bitch Just got back from the annual crawfish boil at Guy's. Had a great time, of course. Ate myself sick, and got a good buzz to boot. But on the way home...I was thinking, per usual...my little brain just whirring along, with the extra shot of booze to grease it's wheels. I was thinking about sin... No, not the nonsense preached at you in church...but personal sins. Like things you do that you know are wrong inside... not necessarily on a "Top Ten" list (ie. "The Ten Commandments") I've done my share of sinning in the eyes of society...yet felt no guilt in doing so. So as I was driving along...I was trying to decide if what I am doing is wrong. I am in the process of living a lie. A big one at that. A ten-year long lie. So what's my sin? Convincing someone that I love them with all my heart and soul, that she is my all, my one, my everything. In truth...I feel nothing. Nothing but terror at leaving her. Terror does not equal love. Psst...wanna hear a secret? I don't think I can love. # |
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